A Puppy's Kiss
I've only known unconditional love a handful of times. It may seem sad to you that I would say such a thing but before you feel sorry for me, you should know that those few times have been enough to soothe much of the hurt of not being loved all the time. This unconditional love came from two places my human children and my furry children--my dogs.
Yesterday, I buried one of my furry children.
It is a day and a feeling I'll never forget. I have not cried so much or so hard since I miscarried my babies.Yes, I compared losing a child to losing a dog. For me both experiences felt the same.
I've struggled all of my life with feelings of abandonment. My mother left me before I knew her face, My father, then in the Navy, shipped me home to my grandparents. Soon he returned to me and whisked me away from there to find himself a new wife. And soon after that, I was a big sister and forever felt like the third wheel in our family; I just didn't belong. As a teen, my parents divorced and my father moved back home to Idaho, leaving me behind again...I could go on but it isn't worth the pain of rehashing it all.
My feelings of abandonment led me to dark places. I would tolerate any abuse as long as at the end of the day the abuser stayed with me. I could not bare the thought of being 'left.' In my crazy mixed up mind I always believed that there must be something wrong with me and that is why I was always being dumped like smelly garbage.
Those feelings of worthlessness persisted until I gave birth to my son at age 17. The minute I gazed into those big blue eyes, I knew my search for love was over. Here was a child who would love me completely and whom I could love back fiercely, forever. I would never be alone or unloved again. My son would never know the pain of being unloved, unwanted, or abandoned. I was dizzy with joy.
My first dog, Sugar, came into my life just over a year later. Sugar was a ten pound Yorkie/Chihuahua mix. The minute I laid eyes on that little dog I knew...
Sugar was my constant companion for 15 years. Most of those 15 years were bad years. Though I now had constant and unconditional love in my life I had yet to grow a backbone or learn to love myself. I recall after one particularly bad bout of abuse from my boyfriend I was ready to go. I snatched up my son and threw him in the car. As I was pulling out of the driveway, Sugar came running after us. My boyfriend scooped her up, held her up in the air by her front legs and threatened to rip them off. I slammed on the brakes, begged for her life, and promised not to try and leave again. I could not leave my sweet girl, no matter the cost to me.
Soon after that I found a friend for Sugar and I. His name was Spot; he was a frisky blue healer pup. The two dogs, funny pair that they were, became best friends. They ate together, bathed together, slept together, and were completely loved and spoiled by me.
Fifteen years later Sugar died in my arms of congestive heart failure. I knew it was coming. The doctor had warned me but...I'd never felt such horrific grief. I vomited. I screamed. I felt as if someone had filled my chest with buckshot. I could not breathe. I could not sleep. I curled into a ball on my bed and didn't leave for days. I was bereft. Spot stayed by my side. He felt the loss of his friend and my grief deeply. Spot never ate or walked again. He gave up. He died less than two months after Sugar.
The pain and loss I felt...I'm not sure I can even put into words the grief I felt. Nothing, in my experience, felt that awful. No matter what I did, I felt incomplete, alone, and depressed.
My Buzzy--the dog I buried yesterday--was my cure. He was a--Pembroke Welsh Corgi--fluffy red pup with short plump legs who looked like a teddy bear/fox cross but acted like a wind up toy; constantly in motion. I was once again in love and loved. Buzzy was smart and before long I had him doing all kinds of tricks. He could play a toy piano; jump, sit, stay, and roll over on command; speak and whisper.
Buzzy also learned to smile. While I was training the goofy guy I rewarded him with bits of food, warm smiles, and hugs. Forever after that, when you called his name my dog would crack a grin from ear to ear. He was giddy with joy, always.
I was so enamored with this lovely personality, I got him a friend. Are you sensing a theme yet? Her name was Bunny. Bunny was nothing like her counterpart. While Buzzy was eager to please, Bunny would wag her nubbin of a tail at you and then roll over for a belly scratch. Bunny had no interest in tricks or pleasing anyone but herself.
Those two dogs brought me so much joy. I was proud of my beautiful coppery dogs. I often took them to public events on a tandem leash. Strangers fawned over my fur babies as much as I did.
Those dogs loved me though a divorce that cost me everything. They loved me through three miscarriages and my son's difficult teenage years. My son tells me now, he probably wouldn't have made it through those years without Buzzy's smiling face. They loved me through starting over in life. They were nothing but absolute love.
When Bunny died in February of this year, I knew from experience that Buzzy wouldn't be far behind. He quickly went from happy and spry to laying about all day. I tried to cheer him up. I tried to give him the love I knew he was missing because that's what he always did for me.
But the loss of his Bunny was more than he could take.
The doctor told me at his last visit, he had congestive heart failure but I think Buzzy succumbed to a broken heart.
I know how he feels.
As I look back on my lost dogs, I am both comforted and tortured. A dog's love is true and sure and constant. It is one the strongest loves I've ever known and comparable only to the love I receive from my children. But the pain of losing them is like having your flesh stripped from your body. It is an indescribable ache in the soul...it is hell.
Is that constant and unconditional love worth the pain of losing them when they pass? Is having loved and lost better than having never loved at all?
Today, fresh with grief, I'd tell you no. No love is worth that horrendous, gut-wrenching, torturous pain.
But if you ask me tomorrow I may tell you differently because there is no love like the love from a dog; there is no psychiatrist a good as a puppy kiss.
Rest in peace, Buzzy, Bunny, Spot and Sugar. I'll see you again someday and it will be a joyous reunion. I'll bring the bacon.
Chelle Gluch
Tuesday, March 7, 2023
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
Sharing is Caring
250,000 Idahoans have to make choices between food and paying bills. It isn't just me and it isn't you either.
I've had the privilege of speaking out against issues of poverty for many years. It all started with the Idaho Foodbank and a Service Learning course at Boise State. My advocacy has grown over the years to include Feeding America too. You'll hear more about my story in the videos below.
I don't share my story to glorify myself. It is hard to stand up and say, "I've struggled. I'm still struggling." Speaking out against issues of poverty and hunger is not something I like to do or ever thought I would do.
I do it out of love and caring.
I love my home. Idaho is a beautiful place but it is a hard place to make a living. I used to think there was something wrong with me, something in my character that kept me from achieving financial security. It is not just me. About one fifth of this state's citizens live in poverty. It is estimated that almost one in six people are food insecure--250,000 Idahoans.
I share my story because if we don't talk about these issues we can't change them. I share my story because I want people to know they aren't alone. I share my story in the hopes that I can open minds--the poor are not poor by choice; it is usually a set of circumstances that keep them mired in poverty. I speak out on these issues because Idaho is wonderful in many ways, but caring for its poor and vulnerable isn't a high priority.
In my home we often say,"Sharing is caring." The Idaho Foodbank has shared not only food with me but has opened my eyes to the fact that I am not alone in my struggles; it's systemic. I've shared. I hope I've started a conversation and I care.
We cannot change that which we don't acknowledge.
250,000 Idahoans have to make choices between food and paying bills. It isn't just me and it isn't you either.
I've had the privilege of speaking out against issues of poverty for many years. It all started with the Idaho Foodbank and a Service Learning course at Boise State. My advocacy has grown over the years to include Feeding America too. You'll hear more about my story in the videos below.
I don't share my story to glorify myself. It is hard to stand up and say, "I've struggled. I'm still struggling." Speaking out against issues of poverty and hunger is not something I like to do or ever thought I would do.
I do it out of love and caring.
I love my home. Idaho is a beautiful place but it is a hard place to make a living. I used to think there was something wrong with me, something in my character that kept me from achieving financial security. It is not just me. About one fifth of this state's citizens live in poverty. It is estimated that almost one in six people are food insecure--250,000 Idahoans.
I share my story because if we don't talk about these issues we can't change them. I share my story because I want people to know they aren't alone. I share my story in the hopes that I can open minds--the poor are not poor by choice; it is usually a set of circumstances that keep them mired in poverty. I speak out on these issues because Idaho is wonderful in many ways, but caring for its poor and vulnerable isn't a high priority.
In my home we often say,"Sharing is caring." The Idaho Foodbank has shared not only food with me but has opened my eyes to the fact that I am not alone in my struggles; it's systemic. I've shared. I hope I've started a conversation and I care.
We cannot change that which we don't acknowledge.
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
On the Edge of the
Field—A Future Teachers Dream
I am, according most of my friends and colleagues, a strange
throwback because I subsistence hunt. Often when I am describing a weekend
effort, people flinch, some visibly recoil. Subsistence hunting just isn’t how
it’s done these days. And a combination academic and hunter is an exceedingly
rare, almost unheard of.
But I am a child of the farm fields. Some of my earliest
memories are of the orderly rows of corn that bordered our ranch-style home in
Notus. Those cornfields were full of all kinds of surprises. Bullfrogs loved
the cool, moist soil and I loved their bumpy, mottled skin and throaty
croaking. Red winged blackbirds often
clung to the tasseled corn tops singing and swaying with the summer breezes. Small
brown field mice scurried about in the maze of tall stalks and cat spiders spun
great bicycle wheel shaped webs between rows.
The canals that fed
those fields were just as magical. I walked along those ditch banks with my
father, serving as a makeshift bird dog. Together we hunted the ducks,
pheasants and geese of the canals and fields.
Of course, those wonderful memories came before my father
decided that his life would not be made in the country and we moved to the city
far from the neat green rows.
As an adult, I found a way to return to those fields—I am a
hunter, specifically a bird hunter. I now walk those same fields in search of
brilliant, coppery pheasant and tiny, tasty quail. But nothing ever stays the
same, even the fields of my childhood have changed. I too have changed, and I
return to these fields as an adult and educator. I am different, my
perspectives are different, and the world around me is different. What is not
different is the fact that these fields have influenced the way I interact with
the all of my worlds—the world of adulthood and the world of education. But,
like substance hunting, education from the local is often not how it’s done
these days.
As a child, the fields stretched end to end, from one side
of the field straight as an arrow to the other side. The fields were irrigated by setting a siphon
tube in the ditch, creating a vacuum, pulling the water through the pipe to
drain into the furrows. My father set siphon tubes as a teen on his father’s
farm and on others for a little extra cash. Every country boy or girl has at
one time or another helped with this chore.
Or at least, that’s the way it was once done.
Hopping out of my pick-up the other day, to visit a field
we’ve neglected for a few years—graduate school has robbed me of more hunting
time than my children and work—I immediately noticed the addition of central
pivot irrigation. Deep wide tire tracks crisscrossed the neat furrows and lead
to where the silver behemoths sat toward the back of the odd shaped field. Though I hate this type of irrigation for its
wastefulness and change from what once was, I also recognized a benefit--large
swaths of brushy land untouched by the plow or irrigation made perfect habitat
for my quarry.
My husband and I began walking along the tumbleweed covered
fence line. Twenty feet into the hunt, a hen jumped from under my feet. I
shouldered my gun and followed the bird’s flight path; I was woefully out of
practice. My husband moved to the
outside of the fence hoping to flush birds my way. I am not as proficient a
hunter as he and appreciated the sacrifice.
We moved in silence, watchful.
On the fringe of the field I took note of the number of mice
tunnels amid the brush. The incredible number of them was a result of all the
corn lying on the ground. The fat mice in turn would feed the red tail hawk
resting on top of the powerline above my head. I muscled my way through waist-high sagebrush
clogged with tumbleweeds and a cottontail darted from the tangled mess, running
for the tire tracks left by the irrigation system. It dropped into the ruts and
ran down the bunny highway.
I pushed on, moving
along the fence, alert and ready.
Weaving through the thick foliage, trying to scramble up a
hillside, my foot slid into a hole. I yanked it out and stumbled backward. As I
flailed about trying to stop myself from falling, I heard a strange growl.
There, in the hole I just pulled my foot from, was a mouth full of long teeth
attached to the angry face of a badger.
I took a step back. It took a step forward, teeth gnashing, and
growling. I took another step back; it took two quick steps forward. I
shouldered my shotgun and flipped off the safety. The badger flattened itself
and scuttled toward me again.
I calculated my odds; I could yell for my husband but I was
sure he wouldn’t make it in time, or I could dispatch the poor animal whose
home I had just disturbed, or I could try to make a run for it though I doubted
I could out run a badger…it was worth a try.
I slowly lowered my
gun and took a few more steps backward. The badger continued to growl and stare
me down. I turned and ran, my legs flying over the uneven ground, toward the
canal. I slipped and slid down the steep bank before stopping to see if my
attacker had followed. It was nowhere in sight, just as I figured. It hadn’t wanted to hurt me at all but was
defending its sett that most likely contained cubs and its feeding
grounds—badgers feed on the mice and rabbits that feed on the corn.
I scrambled back up the canal and resumed my path. I headed
toward the one corner of the field that remained completely untouched by the
plow or irrigation—a small stand of trees in a gulley with a tiny spring. In
those tree branches I found two heart-shaped faces with dark black eyes
watching my every move. I guessed the larger bird to be the mother barn owl and
the smaller to be a recently fledged baby. Neither bird seemed startled by my
presence.
I ducked under a branch and pushed through a clump of thick
bunch grass, a rooster shot up right from under my feet and turned to the
right. I shoulder my gun and took aim but by the time I had a bead on him he
was too near the irrigation pump to fire. He crossed the canal to safety in a
pasture near the farm house.
Having worked our way around half the field I reunited with
my husband. Thick mud was accumulating on my boots, making the walking more
difficult and me more tired and contemplative.
My husband, ever the thoughtful one noticed my dilemma and offered to
lessen my workload. I would walk the canal road above the field on the edge of
the brush while he walked the edge of the furrows. Hopefully, my position above
the narrow strip of weeds would encourage the birds to fly into the center of
the field rather than over the canal.
In a matter of a few
minutes, my husband had taken down his first rooster of the day. I’ve always
admired the intricate patterns and the vibrant red, blues, and greens of the pheasant’s
feathers. And this bird was magnificent—the red around the eye was as red as
any rose I’ve ever seen and blue on the neck as deep as any midnight sky.
Though I love pheasant meat. . . killing such a beautiful bird always makes me
cringe a bit.
We resumed our trajectory. Positioned as I was above my
husband and the field, and right next to the irrigation equipment, my hunt was
over. I shuffled along knocking the mud off my boots with the gravel from the
road. I spotted a fox den, just below the road and slightly above the waterline
of the canal. The muddy bottom of the canal was stamped with its footprints.
The soft cooing of doves could be heard in a small patch of willows nearby. I
stopped to admire their song.
My husband hollered at me, “Hey, look!”
I turned his direction. Running up the hillside toward the
farmhouse was a large, 2x3 buck. I shook
my head in wonder.
“I scared him up out of that drainage pond,” he said
pointing with his gun to a shallow, mostly empty pond. “You doing ok?”
“Yeah, I’m fine. You still looking for one more for dinner?”
He nodded at me. “Let’s finish the loop, in these same
positions, and see what happens.”
I nodded back. I was done with the hunt but enjoying the
walk, the scenery and the animals. I found it amazing that in that narrow,
uncultivated space such a completely ecosystem could exist and thrive. And, I
marveled at the thought that it was the farmers corn—essentially his cast
off—that fueled the whole system. The
mice, rabbits, pheasants, quail and others came for the corn. The predators
like the fox, badger, owls, hawks and I came for the prey.
Questions and thoughts about all I’d seen and felt that
morning niggled at and tickled my mind. Was that functioning system and all the
life it contained beautiful because of the small space it was crammed into or
in spite of it? Was the farmer’s
cast-off product a gift to this system or reparation for the destruction of the
natural environment? And, did the answers to those questions matter?
The resounding boom of my husband’s shotgun interrupted my
train of thought—he’d taken another bird. I rushed to his side. Tonight, we’d
have roast pheasant for dinner. Thrilled, I hugged my husband. Pheasant would
be a nice change of pace from meal after meal of venison. I tucked the
pheasant’s feet under my belt and together we headed home to eat the gift we
found at the edge of the field.
As I slogged my way through the thick mud, I
wondered how many children and teens knew about the gifts to be found in the
field. Could they name all the animals? Could they describe the ecosystem and
how it functioned? Would a comparison of a truly wild place and a cultivated
farm field be worthy of exploration? Surely, my future students would have their
own special places to look into and explore, as well. I tried to imagine what
my future students would write about and where that writing would take them. .
. . at the edge of the field the possibilities seem endless.
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
#LivingintheGap
The last several months have been a real struggle for my little family, more so than most. Money has been very tight.Things were so tight,I found myself having to work weekends and adding additional hours to my 12 hrs days just to keep our heads above water. Add injury and illness to that already stressful situation and you have the perfect storm for a struggling, low-income family. It's an awful place to be.
So, I sat down at my computer and wrote about my pain, fears, and frustration.
That story was featured at http://www.betteridaho.org/2015/11/in-her-own-words/ and http://www.spokesman.com/blogs/hbo/2015/nov/12/idaho-poverty-slow-death-sentence/.
The story was viewed more than 20,000 times!
So, I sat down at my computer and wrote about my pain, fears, and frustration.
That story was featured at http://www.betteridaho.org/2015/11/in-her-own-words/ and http://www.spokesman.com/blogs/hbo/2015/nov/12/idaho-poverty-slow-death-sentence/.
The story was viewed more than 20,000 times!
While I am proud to speak out against issue of poverty, it is still hard. I've received some hate email and some wickedly mean comments online. A few people have even demanded that I leave my Idaho home, calling me a traitor to my state.
To those people I have this to say. "Idaho is my home and I love it. I am deeply rooted to this soil. My daughter is a fifth generation Idahoan and my husband's family have been ranching in Idaho even longer. And over the last forty years I've watched those hard working Idahoans go from hopeful to hopeless. Idaho is a beautiful place to live but a tough place to survive. Running from a fight never changes things. I am staying right here and I will continue to fight to make Idaho a better place for us all."
It has been a strange journey to say the least. But, I believe in this cause. Every American deserves access to health care. This sentiment has been echoed by most of the people who have responded to my story--90% of respondents are horrified by my situation. Apparently even the President agrees with me, because he viewed my story and responded by email! You can find a copy of his letter below.
And yet, Idaho still sees fit to keep punishing its working poor--waitstaff, laborers,caregivers, store clerks--by refusing to adopt into Medicaid a benefit that is now offered to every other American through A.C.A. Nearly everyone I know and love is in the gap. These are hard working people who just happen to be poor.
And Idaho is building the state on our broken and neglected bodies.
And yet, Idaho still sees fit to keep punishing its working poor--waitstaff, laborers,caregivers, store clerks--by refusing to adopt into Medicaid a benefit that is now offered to every other American through A.C.A. Nearly everyone I know and love is in the gap. These are hard working people who just happen to be poor.
And Idaho is building the state on our broken and neglected bodies.
A Slow Death Sentence
I woke this morning with half my face swollen and throbbing--another
bad tooth.
I sat in the bathroom
with an icepack pressed to my face and bawled. Not because of the pain but
because of sheer frustration. I knew the
tooth was going. I’d even managed to set aside $150 for the dentist over the
last six months but it was far from the $650 the dentist needs for the root
canal and crown.
Once again, I’d lose a body part to poverty.
It had only been a month since I’d lost the use of my little
toe, on my right foot. I’d stubbed the
hell out of it on my piano bench and though that toe had been broken before the
pain was so intense I’d thought it best to get it x-rayed. The x-ray showed a
mess of splintered, fragmented bones and the tendons torn away from their
anchor points.
The doctor referred me to an orthopedic surgeon who reviewed
my x-rays and said, “It’s a real mess in there. I’d like to schedule you for
surgery.”
He continued on telling me how the bones pieces would need
to be removed from my toe and a rod would be their replacement. He warned me that taking no action would
result in the toes becoming increasingly painful and arthritic.
“Can I schedule you for next week?” he asked earnestly.
“Ummm…doctor how much will this cost?”
“Not much, about five thousand dollars. I have openings in
the surgical schedule for next Thursday….” He sat there looking at me waiting
for my consent. The paper cover I sat on crinkled loudly in the silence.
I dropped my head and said, “I cannot afford that. That is
more than I paid for my truck and I’m uninsured.”
“Oh,” replied. “In that case I wouldn’t worry about it too
much. The circulation is good. It will never work again but there is no danger
of infection.”
He shook my hand and left the room.
I hobbled back out to my truck and cried for an hour. The
loss of a toe, in the grand scheme of things, isn’t that awful. I could still
walk and hike for now.…but someday soon it was going to start hurting and it
would never stop; constant and continuous pain.
I’d had enough pain already to last me a lifetime.
Over the years, I’ve lost about ten teeth, a finger, and a
few toes to poverty. I try to
rationalize—it’s not that bad, it is just one tiny body part.
But--it is that bad.
These are only the injuries that people can see.
A lifetime of stress induced by poverty has stooped my back,
given me a nervous stomach that makes me throw up when my stress is too high and
induces days of stomach churning diarrhea, and causes migraines so bad that
sometimes I am confined to a bed for a whole day, often much longer. I lost my
uterus in the same manner I lost my toe—years of battling scar tissue and
severe pain resulted in a doctor telling me it would be far cheaper in the long
run to remove these “parts.”
What choice does a person with no resources have?
These are
the injuries others don’t see. They
don’t see the hopelessness I feel. They don’t see the what-if fear that resides
constantly in my heart. They don’t’ see my despair. They don’t see my
self-worth plummeting with the loss of each little part. These are the injuries
that stack up and make it even harder for me to escape poverty.
Someday, I’ll have no more body parts left to lose.
Living in poverty is a slow death sentence.
I wash the tears from my face with cold water, brush my hair, and paste a half-assed smile on my swollen face. It's time for work.
What choice do I have?
President Obama Responds!
Dear Michelle:
Thank you for writing. The Affordable Care Act gives people greater control over their health care, and thanks to the law, millions of people have new ways to buy health insurance at a price they can afford. However, some governors and state legislators have resisted extending affordable coverage to Americans who need it by turning down the option to expand Medicaid—even though the Federal Government would pay for virtually all of the costs. I know many hardworking families are hurting as a result.
Thankfully, many benefits of the Affordable Care Act are available to all Americans, regardless of whether or not their state has expanded Medicaid. Those who have previously been denied coverage due to a pre-existing condition now have access to coverage. The law still helps millions of young people stay on their parents’ plans until age 26, and it still provides people with coverage access to free preventive care like cancer screenings that catch illnesses early on.
I will keep working with states that haven’t expanded Medicaid to make sure they do the right thing. But in the meantime, if you need insurance, I encourage you to see if you can apply for coverage by visiting www.HealthCare.gov, calling 1‑800‑318‑2596, or contacting your state Medicaid office, since you may qualify for existing health care options.
You should also know the requirement to purchase coverage only applies to those who can afford it. Specifically, you may be exempt from this requirement if you lack coverage because your state has not expanded Medicaid. You can learn more about this and other exemptions at www.HealthCare.gov/Exemptions.
Thank you, again, for writing—your message will be on my mind in the days ahead.
Sincerely,
Barack Obama
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Wednesday, September 23, 2015
Elderberries!
#Elderberries
Whenever I tell folks I am off to
pick some berries, the berry that pops into their mind is the huckleberry. The
huckleberry is renowned in the West for its sweet deliciousness. However there
is another purple berry in the Idaho forests that gets little attention, the
elderberry. The elderberry is in my opinion an often overlooked and
underappreciated fruit. It should not be viewed as the huckleberry’s poor
cousin but rather celebrated for all that it is. The elderberry has a lot to
offer.
The Elderberry is a common to the Western
United states, but it is a little known and under-utilized bush. It grows in moist but not swampy areas of
the forest and valleys near creeks, riverbanks, and roads.
The elderberry is a small bush six
to twenty feet in height. It lacks a
central trunk. Rather, several limbs
octopus skyward in search of sunlight, then arch gracefully at the ends,
resulting in an umbrella shaped bush. The
larger limbs are brittle and a grayish/brown color. The centers of the branches and limbs are
pith filled—pith is the soft tissue in the center of twigs and branches that is
responsible for moving and storing nutrients throughout the plant. In new
growth the pith will be white or creamy.In older growth the pith turns gray or
brown or may disintegrate leaving the wood hollow. This easily hollowed wood is
how the plant earned its genus name of Sambucus, from the Greek word sambuke, a
wind instrument made from the wood of the alder.
These brittle, grayish branches
support the grass-green, finely saw-toothed, elongated and inverted tear drop
leaves. These long slender leaves are pinnately compound leaves—the leaves are
arranged like a feather with the twig being the spine and the leaves sprouting
evenly on either side. The lance-shaped leaflets are also pinnate; a central
spine with evenly spaced veins. The lush kelly-green leaves of the blue elderberry
are easily visible from great distances set against the faded yellow grasses
and hillsides of Idaho in fall.
The Elderberry is a show stopper in
spring sporting creamy-white flower clusters the size of grape bunches. By fall the blossoms have grown into heavy,
clumps of deep blue berries covered in a thin white film. This deep blue covered with a white film gives the blue elderberry its species name, cerulean, from the Latin
caeruleus meaning “sky blue.”
Elderberries are classified as a
drupe--a fruit consisting of a thin skin, a succulent meaty layer and a stone
or woody seed in the center. The meat is
sweet and reminiscent of a blueberry but meager, and the seed is rather large
for a berry the size of a pencil eraser. But, the enormous elderberry bunches, that can often weigh nearly a half a pound each, makes gathering the fruit
rather easy. One large tree can easily yield ten
pounds of berries.
Historically, Native Americans have
used the elderberry in making purple and green dyes, as a medicine to treat
colds, sore throats, fevers, sprains, bruises, arthritis and toothaches, and the hollowed wood was fashioned into
flutes. However, there is now scientific evidence that this fruit boosts the immune system—it is being used experimentally to treat AIDS and cancer patients—bioflavonoids and certain proteins in the fruit destroy a viruses ability to
infect cells—elderberries were used to treat a flu epidemic in Panama in 1955. However, modern
foragers most often use the elderberry for jelly, syrups and juice. Sugared and cooked elderberries
taste like a cross between a Concord grape and blueberries.
infect cells—elderberries were used to treat a flu epidemic in Panama in 1955. However, modern
foragers most often use the elderberry for jelly, syrups and juice. Sugared and cooked elderberries
taste like a cross between a Concord grape and blueberries.
The simplified name of the elderberry—sky-blue
wind instrument tree—has a certain poetic ring to it. There is a beauty in that name. However, if a
name were given that properly reflected this magnificent tree it would need to
be much longer—Ancient, sky blue, dye maker, food provider, dentist,
doctor,flutemaker—and not nearly as aesthetically pleasing.
Elderberry Jelly Recipe and Syrup
3 cups prepared juice (or 3 lb. fully ripe elderberries)1/4 cup fresh lemon juice
1 box SURE-JELL Fruit Pectin
1/2 tsp. butter or margarine
4-1/2 cups sugar, measured into separate bowl
1/2 cup of honey
Prepare your jars or other storage container—I often make freezer jelly rather than traditional canning methods but the recipe stays the same.
Carefully remove all the stems from the berries. Rinse the berries well. Pour berries into a large sauce pan and crush thoroughly; a potato masher works wonderfully though I run my berries through a juicer which separates the seeds and skins out. Cook over medium heat until the berry juices start to flow. Once your berries are thoroughly crushed and juicy, drain the mixture through a few layers of cheesecloth draped over a strainer or colander with a pan underneath to catch the juice. Let it drain for a few minutes. Squeeze as much juice as you can from the cheesecloth. This should leave you with between three and five cups of juice. Return the juice to the saucepot and stove. Add in lemon juice, sugar, honey. Bring to a full rolling boil. Stir constantly for about five minutes. I know my syrup is done when it clings to my stirring spoon. Measure out the hot mixture and remove enough of the juice mix to leave just three cups in the saucepan. This extra, the juice you remove from the saucepan, is your syrup. Return the mixture to the stove and bring to a rolling boil. Add pectin and stir for a full minute. Pour this into your prepared storage containers.
The syrup will last in the fridge for about 3 weeks. The jelly, if frozen, will last up to a year. Once refrigerated it should be used within a month.
Possible Jelly/Syrup Alterations
Because elderberries are so prolific and easy to gather, I’ve experimented. An equal mix of blackberries and elderberries makes a delightful jelly. If for some reason you run short of berries or juice, grape juice works well to fill the gap, though apple juice will also do in a pinch.
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
Red and Purple; August
in Southern Idaho
#Soda Fire, #Kokanee, # Elderberry
#Soda Fire, #Kokanee, # Elderberry
The glowing red and orange of the Soda Fire reflecting
off the surface of sleepy, gentle Lake Lowell made my stomach turn and bile
rise. The rolling hills surrounding the lake obstructed my view. Needing to see
more, I Instructed my husband to get me closer and we drove on. As the entire
fire came into view I gasped and found myself shivering uncontrollably. The heat coming off the flames could not warm
me. The thick, choking smoke added to my tears. Sitting in the cab of our
truck, in relative safety, sobbing in horror, I watched the enormous red
millipede march over the landscape, devouring the rangeland. Small fire
tornadoes sprang to life greedily gobbling up sagebrush and Russian Olive
trees. The fire’s roaring, moaning, hissing, popping and sighing all rolled
into one wicked, deafening voice. So many beloved places—Givens Hot Springs,
the Rats Nest and Hard Trigger areas, Silver City, Reynolds and Wilson Creek
drainages—all lay in the path of this voracious beast.
Stoddard Mansion, Silver City |
Silver City Church |
August in southern Idaho is red
and purple. Red fills the minds of Idahoans with dread; August is fire season.
Fire, for a Westerner, is synonymous with danger and destruction. Just
the word conjures up images of fire tornadoes and blackened soil. Fire is a
reality of Western life. It comes and goes every season. Fire is both death and birth; immediately
following a fire the land looks dead but soon the rain brings new shoots of
green and the landscape is reborn.
Over the years, I've watched fire greedily devour many places I love the Owyhees, Sun Valley and Ketchum, Pine and Featherville, Crouch and Garden Valley, McCall and Riggins. The list is too long to continue. Most years, all I can do is watch the television screen in dismay as the fires are usually far from my home in the Treasure Valley.
This fire season struck me much harder than those before.
When the Soda Fire started near the Idaho/Oregon border I wasn't too
concerned. Small range fires are fairly common and Owyhee County is vast.
However, when the fire ballooned from 10,000 acres to 200,000 acres in a day in
a part of Idaho that is my backyard—my children were figuratively baptized in
the waters of the Snake River; my husband and I hunt the Owyhees every year for
deer; my husband’s family ranched the area since the 1880s; I’ve spent more
than a decade researching an historical Owyhee county figure; blurry images of
the Owyhees are some of my earliest childhood memories−my view of fire changed
drastically.
When fire threatens a place you call home it becomes
monstrous. Like the notoriously maligned wolf, fire is suddenly imbued with
evil intent and murderous ways. This wicked, viscous thing was destroying my
home, my backyard, my Owyhees. Every
hair on my body stood on end. Grabbing
my daughter, husband and a dear friend and we headed out to confront the beast
and witness the devastation.
Every hour and passing day brought horrific updates—240,000 acres, 260,000 acres and evacuations, 7 miles from Silver City, Soda Fire the largest fire in the lower 48. The fire consumed me too. I could not tear myself away from the screen. I could not sleep. I had no appetite. When I closed my eyes at night that glowing red millipede chased me.
Every hour and passing day brought horrific updates—240,000 acres, 260,000 acres and evacuations, 7 miles from Silver City, Soda Fire the largest fire in the lower 48. The fire consumed me too. I could not tear myself away from the screen. I could not sleep. I had no appetite. When I closed my eyes at night that glowing red millipede chased me.
Soda Fire from Pump Road, 2015 |
As of this week the Soda Fire is out. So much of the
landscape I love is charred. There were no human fatalities. Several ranches
lost cattle. Thirty wild horses trapped behind barbed wire died and others had
to be euthanized. Those losses are distressing
but it will take years for the high desert to recover, years.
The ranchers and sage grouse, antelope, mule deer and other wildlife that
depend on the rangeland will suffer right along with the landscape until it is
healed.
As the fire wound down, the sky filled with gray smoke, and I found myself exhausted. My constant worry had taken a physical toll and my thoughts turned to another kind of red−spawning Kokanee. Kokanee run every August. I hoped at Anderson Ranch Reservoir, where the desert kisses the mountains, the sky would be clearer and I could finally leave the fire behind.
We arrived late on a Friday night and set up our camp at
Fall Creek Resort—a lovely backcountry destination with a small motel, a
restaurant and bar, a marina and a campground on the banks of Anderson Ranch
Reservoir. We woke in the morning, for
the first time in two weeks, to a sun that did not look like a slice of pink
grapefruit and a brilliantly blue sky. We ate quickly and then headed for the
creek. My daughter ran full tilt, her sun-tanned arms and legs pumping in
unison. Below the black volcanic rock the creek runs through, in the cool transparent,
water dozens of fire-red Kokanee struggled against the current. My daughter
squealed in delight. The fish rolled and boiled and occasionally leaped,
flashing red above the blue. Fascinated by the bright color, she rock-hopped to
the center of the creek and attempted to touch the fish, her arm submerged up
to her shoulder in the cold water. My husband threw fishing line after line trying
to entice a bite. I chose a nearby rock
and settled in to watch their fun and take in my surroundings.
Spawning Kokanee |
As the day wore on the smoke slowly rolled back in. Soon,
the sky was once again flannel gray. The horizon was limited to only those
mountains surrounding the reservoir that were mostly green having escaped the
fire the summer before. We moved lazily
upstream, fishing along the way.
In a mass of lush green plants crowding the creek, I
found the spiny, glossy leaves and purple berries of the Tall Oregon grape. The
plant grew at the base of a burned out Ponderosa pine, was no more than four
inches tall, and had produced six grapes.
I let the little grapes be so that it might seed for next year. The creek, I discovered, was also thick with
elderberry bushes so heavy with clusters of purple, juicy berries that their
branches hung all the way to the ground.
I snapped off clusters and deposited them in a grocery sack and wondered
what a mix of elderberries and huckleberries would taste like in a batch of
jelly. I'd gathered my huckleberries earlier in the month and stored them in
the freezer. The thought of the two
flavors mingling together excited me and I couldn't wait to get home and give it a try.
Elderberry |
Tall Oregon Grape |
Fall Creek, 2015 |
Rounding a bend in the creek, we came upon a favored
fishing hole, a small waterfall tumbling into a large blue pool. Red Kokanee
assembled at the base of the falls, ready to leap into the white waters and
continue their efforts to reach the spawning grounds. It had been years since we'd visited the spot
and I marveled at the changes those years brought. My husband continued his
fishing. My daughter caught a toad and spent the afternoon deep in conversation
with the amphibian. I sat next to the
rushing water, listening to its prattle, while snapping photos.
We spent two days fishing Anderson Ranch and the nearby
creeks. It was a lovely respite, Anderson Ranch and Fall Creek always are. We
came home renewed, with bags full of elderberries and purple fingertips.
August is a strange month in Idaho. The fires are
devastating but the Kokanee and the berries are life affirming—watching a
Kokanee struggle upstream to spawn and start new life is amazing and wild
berries taste like summer on the tongue.
August marks the end of summer and the beginning of fall—hot and cool,
death and birth−red and purple represent the month well.
Fall Creek, 2006
For more information about Fall Creek Resort please visit http://fallcreekresortandmarina.com/ |
Thursday, July 2, 2015
Warm Lake and The Gluch's
Sometimes
life presents us with some funny coincidences.
I recently wrote an article featuring Warm Lake. I've been visiting the area for years for
fishing, scenery, and hot springs.
However, for my husband’s family Warm Lake and North Shore Lodge has
been a favored family vacation spot for nearly thirty years. Many, many family memories are centered
around time spent on the beautiful high-mountain lake.
My husband
and his brothers tell stories of the bears who used to be so plentiful in the
area that they were frequent night time visitors, poking their black heads into
the circles of light from the cabin's front porch lights. My husband and I announced
our engagement to his family while on a trip to the lake. Our daughter has
spent most of her Fourth of July’s at the little lake blissfully unaware of the
crowds or fireworks she was missing back home in the Treasure Valley.
Warm
Lake is a special and magical place. It
is a place that is hard to leave; a small slice of heaven in the Idaho
backcountry. So I wrote about it and posted it to my blog, with the hopes of
sharing that special, out-of-the-way location with others.
The
following morning, to my delight, the Idaho Statesman printed their own article
about Warm Lake, which featured a photo of my family who were visiting the week
before. It matters little to me which
article drives a visitor to the lake and lodge, what is important is that they
go and get a taste of what makes Idaho so special. It is in this spirit that I and the Statesman both share these
destination articles, for these special far-flung places depend on the next
generation of visitors to keep them alive and well. I've provided a link below to share with you the Statesman article and photo.
This desire to share these heavenly places has been a driving force in my life for the last four years as I've worked to complete my book, "Under My Idaho Sky" which is scheduled for publication this fall with Mill Park Publishing. The book features numerous backcountry Idaho locals and contains maps and photos of those areas. In my home and life we use the phrase "Sharing is caring." And there is little I care about more than my magnificent home. My book is a reflection of that caring. If you are interested in reading about more of these backcountry destinations please continue to visit my blog for further information on the upcoming release date.
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